That's a strange name.

Ambiguously hopeful. There's a story there. I once read about a project where they asked people to describe themselves completely using just six words. Think of what a challenge that would be, to sum up yourself and your life and all that makes you, well YOU in only six words. How would you do that? What would you say? Would you pick six adjectives (tall/short, heavy/slender, smart, beautiful)? Would those types of words really define you in any meaningful way or just describe what people can measure themselves by looking at you or talking to you briefly? How we tell our stories matters to us. How we define our uniqueness and describe the intimate moments of our lives and how we've played the game of life is so important to most of us. What would you choose if you were asked to sum it all up in six words?
I chose these: Great LOVE, Great LOSS, Ambiguously HOPEFUL. I feel these words are the best measure of my life and myself. I live my life loving greatly. I hope that if you are reading this now you have felt that at some point from me. I have also had tremendous loss in my life. I've felt grief that has torn out my heart, stomped it into the gravel, and shoved the damaged barely beating organ back into my exhausted body. [Sorry, I got a little graphic there, and I think you get the point]. In my life, I have had moments of pure optimistic hope for the future as well as those moments that none of us care to admit where hope seems as elusive as big foot or the loch ness (yep, I looked it up and that's how you spell that) monster. We want to stop the suffering of the moment and we feel as though we may drown in our hopelessness. Ambiguity by definition means something uncertain, unclear, complex, or doubtful. This is how I feel about hope, it comes and goes it never seems to stay constant. I've always managed to find it again but usually not alone.
Try the six words activity and let me know what you come up with. I would enjoy hearing your ideas.